God is the epitome of Love. Only He can provide this unconditional, sacrifical,selfless,eternal,holy love; no one but only Him and Him alone. I have been trying to search for this love acknowlegdement from humans,hoping my desires to be loved will be fulfilled by them. Sadly, it’s temporal. Its like here today, gone tomorrow. There were times when i felt like no one could comprehend my thoughts and emotions. When dusk sets in, I felt this loneliness creeping into my heart. The fear of being alone sometimes grips me, i was thinking:who can i turn to? And i question myself, Who really love me, and if they do, will they be there for me in times of my needs? Sadly, i cant think of anyone that will stand with me,stand by me. NO one. what caught and overwhelm me was that there’s this someone, this someone nearer than i thought He would be. Its GOD. I dont know why, but GOD show up in my weakest and darkest moment. I felt His genuine presence and embrace. Only He can fill us with His agape love eternally.
Things I don’t understand. God, you show me. Your thoughts about me are just amazing,perfect,beautiful,awesome. Created for this intimacy with my wonderful creator. God, consume my thoughts,consume me.
Back, 3 years flew passed,extremely fast. Joy and grief,parts and parcels of growing. Surrealism hits me so hard and felt this voice in my head whispering” what have I been doing the past 3 years” though I cannot figure out what was on me. I am still finding myself being trapped in this maze,searching within and deeper for my dreams. This indescribable feeling received when you can’t seem to know what are you are trying to look for, when all efforts seem futile. Fear is gripping the whole of me, insecurities driven to defeat me. It just felt so terrifying. DaddyGod,pull me through,stand firm with me.
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